Wait and hope

Live, then, and be happy, beloved children of my heart, and never forget, that until the day when God will deign to reveal the future to man, all human wisdom is contained in these two words, - "Wait and hope."

~Edmond Dantes from The Count of Monte Cristo~

I stumbled upon this quote on the blog of a woman that dealt with 3+ years of infertility before finally giving birth to her son. The quote was inspiring to me...unfortunately for us, God has not deigned to reveal the future to us -- we don't know why we are unable to conceive -- but it would not be faith if we knew the future. And so, we continue to trust, and to "wait and hope" that someday we will have kids.

For those of you who interested (or perhaps just for my own record), here's a recap of what's been discovered so far as we have tried to start our own family:

-August 2005 - Got married to my high school sweetheart after 5 years of dating (started oral contraceptives)

-December 2009 - Started trying to conceive and naively thought it would happen right away. Ha!

-April 2010 - Went to GYN for infrequent periods, blood work normal

-June 2010 - Ultrasound of ovaries, diagnosed with polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS)

-August-October 2010 - Three months on Clomid, with no success.

-October 2010 - Referral to reproductive endocrinologist (RE) - Hubby checked out ok, my diagnosis of PCOS was confirmed. Was told I could not do Clomid anymore due to vision side effects I had. Were told we would have to do in-vitro fertilization (IVF).

-November to present - Waiting and hoping that we might get pregnant on our own...and seeking to explore any other options before we endeavor to start such an invasive and scary thing as IVF.
-March 5, 2011 - WE FIND OUT WE ARE PREGNANT! And it happened naturally...Praise be to God!